My soul is crying out!

Over the past few weeks “I have been going through so much, it seems as if it’s all around me and I have to get it out. The only way I know how to do that is through writing. When I was in Junior High and High school writing was my form of escape and ofcourse music.  When everybody else was getting high and chasing boys, I was writing and  feeling not the best about myself. I have learned one thing in life, as I  am approaching my 34 th birthday that people will do whatever they want to you if you let them Christian or not. People are just people, there are always two sides to a story, but what I also know is that God sees, hear, and knows all and everything. When you have done all that you could for a person and they don;t want to help and better themselves, then you leave them bee. There were a lot of things that was said last night at church that gave me the assumption that that everybody knows that  am an Ace. So what! People will take you to hell if you let them behind foolish misunderstandings and petty jealousies, but I refuse to go to hell behind imperfect people that are flesh and bone like me. I am not ashamed of who I am, and I am not changing for no one. Now if God want me to change I will, He have not indicated this to me at all. What He have been saying to me is GO THROUGH! You are strong enough more then you think because you have Me. I will not put more on you then what you can bear, if He knows that I am strong enough to bear it, then I am. I am going to get caught up in Him and His purpose and plans for my life. I can only imagine all and everything that Jesus my savior went through on earth with these cruel, calloused and malicious people. But when it’s all said and done, God fights for me. I am His daughter, the apple of His eye. He died for me, He loves me, and wants me to be happy. I am entitled to that like any one else. I have  been so far walking in peace and I believe that God is pleased He gave me a scripture on yesterday that confirmed He was please with how I am handling certain things. Proverbs 21: 23   Whoso keepeth his mouth and his tongue keepeth his soul from troubles.